Friday, May 11, 2007.
Hello.Yes, what a starting.
Science paper was uber disgusting.
ya all should know hur.
School was shit fun, especially during Art.
Almost dropped down from the stairs.
Ahahahaha.
Oh and Joey went to Malaysia to celebrate Mothers' day.
rofl.
Band super tiring.(Like always)
Joey & Caihong didn't came, so only left me&pauline >:(
Junkai, Jerald, Zehao came back, to, um, 'HELP'.
Ahahahha.
Went to Melissa house, played like crazy.
From playing with sand to splashing water to playing piano to playing with Ginger(The non-edible-dog. Mind you.)
Yes, we are very lame.
Camwhored, updating, maybe later.
I don't know.
Pictures&Quotes..
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me.
There’s a truth in your eyes saying that you’d never leave me.
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me whenever I fall.
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.
So while she dies in her sleep,
I hope you're choking in your dreams.
She's the girl who pratices what she's
going to say to him the next day,
the girl who gets dolled up just for him,
& the girl who's speechless the momen
the comes into her sight.
Love is an accident waiting to happen,
desire is a stranger you think you know,
intimacy is a lie we tell ourselves,
and truth is a game we play to win.
I dont know.
I dont want it to be like this.
I hate this.
I hate the way you've made me feel and I'm sick of pretending that it doesn't hurt me because it does.
I wish it could be simple; like a retro-pop song."
I want you to want me".
BOOM.
End of story.
We all like happily ever after.
But its never like that, is it?
I'm the type of girl that will put my head on your shoulder
and tell you it's because I'm tired
But I'm really doing it to be closer to you
They hide behind the "security" of books or computers or music,
because they would rather feel life than have to live it.
They would prefer to hide from people,
because people hurt, leave, betray, let down, and intimidate.
They prefer silence over noise, awkwardness over perfection, and honesty over lies.
You say you are my friend,
That you trust me and you'll always be there for me,
And that nothing I could do would ever change your perception of me.
Well, I'll just tell you this--
You're not the first one to tell me that,
And that other person...they're no longer here.
I'm telling you this because you didn't ask.
I've got it all here, growing like a tumor in my throat.
I'm telling you because if i don't i will choke on it.
Everybody knows what happened...but nobody asks.
I'm not saying I have nothing.
I'm not saying i'm gone completely.
It's just sometimes it's all a bit too hard to handle,
sometimes I feel like it's too much.
I'm not going to do anything stupid because i know it will get better;
it has to, right?
Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years.
But for now, just for now...it hurts.
Be optimistic. All the people you hate now, are eventually going to die.
Dont tell me you have been depressed.
You have no idea.
No fucking idea.
How dare you tell me you've been depressed.
Look at you, smiling and laughing and joking.
You shrug when I tell you I feel bad.
There is no way you would shrug if you had been depressed.
When I say I have had a bad day, that doesnt mean I failed a test, or lost my purse.
It means depression had such a great hold on me that I could not function throughout the day.
It means so many things, so many of which are very difficult to explain.
There is no way to verbalize the pain a depressed person feels.
Its quite simply not possible.
Depression is crying myself to sleep night after night,
Faking being fine all day but the moment I close my door behind me that fascade crashes and falls around me.Its needing someone to hear my cries for help but feeling as if I am screaming into an empty abyss.
romance starts as some blank concept
and then you just fill it in with objects
so you can have something to point to
when you want to make it real
its like... when youre smiling through your tears
but you completely mean both expressions
stayed seady, really i had no idea if i had proved anything
but i liked standing there silent with him
there was something very sharp and new about that moment.
i shut my eyes and wished that i could see the two of us.
we could even just be lips and loving thoughts and that would be perfect
And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile,
Please stay for a while now Just take your time wherever you go
but you did care you know you did
even if you dont admit it you loved me
you wanted me around more than anyone
i know its different now because we change
but just remember what did happen
Cracks in the concrete
are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are.
Sometimes it hurts more to hope
And it hurts more to care but…
Promise me you won’t stop caring.
Imagine if we never lied
Imagine if we never tried
To be something we're not
We forgot how it feels
To be tight
To be close
To be real
this is my last chance to see you before you go
and i love you so, oh how much youll never know
Little girl don't grown up so fast
those carefree times won't last
you dont have time to see if its worth it
just trust your heart and hope it turns out right
Here’s the truth about the truth…
it hurts, so we lie.
dont touch me, i said
because i can't handle someone
being good to me
& I bet you think its cool to never care about the things that matter
Feel like every chance to leave, is another chance I should of took
&&It's those pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
she straightens her hair,
applies her make-up smoothes out her clothes&takes one last look in
the mirror, just to see what a failure she is
I could've sworn you said I meant something to you.
You know i've got your name tattooed on my heart.
Sick to my stomach again.
I keep remembering that youre just my friend.
you're not even mine,
yet im so scared to lose you.
I trusted you.and that would be my first mistake.
I don't want to be a faded memory.
I want to know that you'll always love me.
Maybe if my heart stops beating, it wont hurt so much.
You were always the mysterious one with
dark eyes and careless hair,
you were fashionably sensitive
but too cool to care.
i wish i could get over him just as easily as he got over me.
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car.
Why do you have to make this so hard?
And I'll drown in your eyes,
And I'll choke from your kiss
because if I'm gonna die,
I wanna die like this
The only thing worse than a broken heart is knowing
you'd give him another chance.
No one knows the real her.
she hides her feelings from everyone.
on the outside she's the typical girl.
on the inside she's screaming for help.