Wednesday, June 6, 2007.

written on my wrist in a form of art
just to show myself how much i've
broken myself apart

my friends all yell at me to just stop
they don't know how addicting it truly is
you can't just put the razors away and be done with it




That's when the puzzle was finally pieced
We compromised until our bodies seized
To some we seem like colder creatures well
We were warm until we went to hell

Part my ribs like the sea and change me
'cause stone doesn't beat
and rock hearts don't pump anything
but I've grown not to mind because at least
stone doesn't sling like blood
or spill like guts across the floor
where the bloodsuckers want more and more and more


Sometimes the happiest people you know
are the saddest people you will ever meet.


I don't tell anyone about this pain i'm feeling,
i don't want to bring them down with me.
each scrap in my skin releaves the anger.
this razor has seen the worst of me.


everyday is harder to get through,
and i'm running out of happiness.

12:49 AM
NICOLE♥

Tuesday, June 5, 2007.

So, yesterday was maid's birthday.
Momma baked her birthday cake :D

Ahah, yogurt cake :D
Gave the present me & Joey bought.
AHAHA. (:

Today went to TM,
waited for Joey's mother to fetch us to Tampines Library.
Wore same shoes(different colour), clip, colour shirt, tied almost the same hair style?
Cause I bought that shoe(the shoe I was wearing) like last year?
Super small.
So walked & walked, then like 1/24 or the base like peeled off?
LOL.

Walked around wholeeeee library, then realise that we don't have some lame digital library account?
So can't use the library's computer-.-

Borrowed a book, then realised that, actually, I haven't returned some books.
Or I returned late.
Rofl luhhhh.
So walked to Tampines Mall.
Walked up to level four/three(forgot), near the neoprints shop already,
then saw Tiffanie with her Sec1 friends, ROFL LUHH.
I didn't recognised her at first, then she suddenly waved to me.
LOL, So obviously I waved back and say Hi.
So continued walking towards to neoprints shop.

Went changing notes to coins that time,
suddenly, some weird looking but smexy creature hit me and the back.
And said, "HIIIIIIII!!!!!!!"
She jumped around like a frog.
& it's Nicky.

AHAHAHA.
Took those card type of neoprints with Joey first,
then took the normal stickers one with Joey & Nic.

Laminated the card one,
The stickers one divided luh.
Just that the ugly one I took and threw it away.
HEHHHHHHHHHH :D

So faster ran down to Mcdonalds to take a quick lunch.
Ate,Ate,Ate.

Then ran up to GV Cinema.
Watched Pirates of the Carribean.
Nachos and the usuals larh.

After watching went to Popular to buy some stuffs.
At first wna buy school shoe, but, lazy like shit.
So didn't buy.

Went to HappyThots, then TheWalletShop.
Can't find any nice stuff?

Took 38 home.
Ate, Bathe,
Then Joey went home.

Watched Cantonese drama with parents.
Damn happy cause the freaking stupid loser shitxz 2nd wife finally kanna kick out of the house.
HAHAHA.

I'm not going to log in Msn or whatever till I've done my tuition homework.
Or at least 3/4.
And I must at least do 2 test papers.
MUSTMUSTMUST.

Oh and Jack Sparrow is damnnnnnnn shuai with make-up.


& Without makeup.


And this is the very sad song in Pirates of the Carribean: At the world's end.

10:41 PM
NICOLE♥

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Hothothothot.

9:16 AM
NICOLE♥

Monday, June 4, 2007.

Lame Love Test.
ROFL.

11:55 PM
NICOLE♥

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Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

So, took taxi to school.
The taxi-driver was superrrrrr friendly luh.
Talked & talked.

Reached school at around 8 15?
Thought I will be the earliest or something?
But like almost 3/4 of the pupils already there.

So whateverrrrrr.
Did the usuals(LOL)

Supplementary was superrrrrrr random.
MrsLee bought cakes.
Beginning was alright, till the ending part?
Was suppose to write down a question regarding the provided paragraph of a story.
She didn't elaborate like what type of question, so I just like write a question that don't have the answer in the paragraph. She scolded luh. I just like give a no expression face. Maybe I don't really understand what does the word LAUGH means. Then she said that I was trying to be funny.

She also said something like:
I scold you, you laugh, I ask you to answer your own question, you shrug, then you laugh, then now I scold you, you laugh. Seems like I need to call someone's father tonight. 10 demerit points!

Maybe I smiled, but I didn't LAUGH.
Whatever, I want it.
LOL, ok, seriously, whatever.

Then Mrslee asked Joey?
When she was answering she suddenly like didn't know how to pronounce the words
-.-
From old woman to old wo men.
Everybody laughed.

Then Mrslee : Don't try to be funny okay!! -then I forgot-
LOL LUHHHHHH.

Went home at 12 45.
Cam whore loserxszx.


Sexy Peiqin.


Sexy siying.


Sexy Qianyu

135 came, so rannnnn for it.
Went to Eastpoint with Joey to buy Lulu's bday present :D
Both of us bought a damn cheap pencil case, clips, super cute hurr (:

Watching Pirates of the Carribean tomorrow, with momma & Joey.
Momma don't wna sponsor us Neoprints ):

Intend to meet Joey at 11 Simei 7/11.
Then take train to tampines, do tuition homework at Tampines's library.
:D

Oops, I changed my skin again-.-

4:06 PM
NICOLE♥

Sunday, June 3, 2007.

I know, I know.
I really should stop changing skins.
But it's soooo addictive >):

11:43 PM
NICOLE♥

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I'm not going to take the first step,
cause you know I can't,
cause you know I can't accept reality.


Stop make me miss you,
Stop make me skip a beat when I see you,
Stop all this shit.


No, I'm not going to cry over you.
It's not because I'm over you.
It's just because I'm not feeling anything, except this numbed sensation.


Boy, let's get Emotional.

10:50 PM
NICOLE♥

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Holding tightly onto the balloons,
like I never want to let you go.

Back from lagoon.

Very good place to gain weight.
ROFL.
Ate super lots of stuff >):
Cockles(HUM,LOL),GongGong(ROFLROFL), SquiSqui(LOL), Rojak, Omelette, Chicken wings. EtcEtc.
The food name super funny luh.
Imagine the amount of fats ):
Talked about how many piercing my brother have & stuff.
But he took out all, cause he say, he's different, he don't follow the trend.
LOL, PUKES LUH.

Walked around East Coast Park.
Very emo place, I think.
Make me think of super loads of stuff?
Saw someone look super like Benedict's back view.
ROFL.

Lots of people water-ski-ing(or whatever you call it)
Muscular like crazy.(girls & boys)
Tease bro that if he water-ski, our whole family will be like a cheer leading team, taking pompoms and cheer for him.
My ass.
ROFL.

Gna home, walked to dad's car, that realised he tio summon $10,
cause his coupon time has exceed by 1hour.
yadayada, used bro's phone to send me songs.
Veryveryvery emo songs.
But damn nice! :D

Reached home, bathe, watched My Sassy Girl for awhile,
then didn't watch already cause was pretty boring?
Went outside then realise parents was watching this stupid fighting show.

So now blogging? :D
Mother agreed to let me take taxi to school tomorrow cause she knows I'll over sleep on the bus :D
Hehhhhhh.
Watching Pirates of the Carribean with Momma & Joey on tuesday, not confirmed though.
Gna do maths while watching Cantonese DVD later!
:D

8:38 PM
NICOLE♥

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Okay, today was like superrrrrrrrrr sian.
Chat with ys on msn, useless talks.
ROFL :

Preparing to go lagoon to eat.
Fats/ but whatever.

Not going Melissa's house cause her parents wna go out to eat till around 9pm?
So no point going or like stopping them from going.

Gotta take bus tomorrow.
Zzzzzzzz?
Don't even understand why MrsLee has to like move the supplementry lesson later.
Gna have traffic jam & stuff -.-
Totally screwed luhhhhhh.
Will have alot of time to think about useless stuff.
Heh?
Whatever.

4:36 PM
NICOLE♥

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BOREDBOREDBORED.
But,
I LOVE PHOTOSHOP!

12:48 AM
NICOLE♥

Saturday, June 2, 2007.

6:35 PM
NICOLE♥

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I want a lover I don't have to love.
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.

But you, but you...

You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
And to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.

(Click for full lyrics)



It was in the March of the winter, I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
It's just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by it's honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

(Click for full lyrics)

2:58 PM
NICOLE♥

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Ok, so I didn't put my braces cause I needa expansion of jaw, then needa wait cause PSLE coming then parents scared I can't speak properly. LOL LUHHHHHH.

Woke up, went to Wishma(or whatever you spell it)
After me & dad checked up our teeths & stuff, momma paid then went to eat Sushi Tei.




$60, heng not my money? LOL.


momma's fake smile :O

And stupid robot look-.-

Yesterday night was super sian.
Wanted to find out how to use my freaking scanner,
Then coincidentally found my, um, Corel Trial Photoshop.
Officially installed it in my computer.

& it was pretty fun.
Change this picture.


And became.


AHAHAHA.

1:52 PM
NICOLE♥

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Okay, due to my mother's blurness(-.-), she said that maybe tomorrow only doing the checkup or whatever):
But nevermind, at least I get to talk as per normal for a few more days.
LOL.

Return of tags :D
Yongxin > Aha, Okay.
Danica > Not sure yet, but most probably? :D
Ash > Aha :D
Cs > What 50+ ? Weight? 41kg :
ENchater > Cs shorter than you luh. AHAHA.
Ulrika > Okay :D

12:10 AM
NICOLE♥

Friday, June 1, 2007.

Oh, so from yesterday's post.
After waiting for melissa for 8 hours, she came and was like 'sorrysorrysorry'
Ignore a little while, then went swimming, kinda talked.
Then that luh. LOL-.-

Swim.swim.swim.
Lose weight Lose weight.
But I'm kinda losing t feeling to lose weight.
Hungry.
After swimming for around 20minutes?
Talked to Melissa about her-.-

Then gah, told her the fact?
LOL :/

Went home, bathe.
Studied a little while.
Ah, a veryveryverylittle while.

Melissa doing hermy homework. LOL :/
Started to get bored..
So..


LOL.
Laughed at it for around 20minutes luh.
Cute stars? LOL.

And after much consideration,
we started to bake cookies?
LOL, very sudden.

But my mother, being a obsessed baker,
she's got like almost everything in the kitchen.
So just got a recipe for her and started baking.




Our very serious attitude.
And when it is in the oven..
Camwhoreeeee.


6eye melissa :D








Oh so, my maid started to do the rest.
LOL.



She being very haolian, don't wna let me snap her.
So that explains the super blur picture.


& tada, super nice cookies.

yadayada, played, while doing tuition homework.
Was around 11 already?
Totally like rushed through.

After doing, watched a episode of Gangster 15, too boringgggg, so went to like roll & the bed.
Eat chips.
Then slept.
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Today.
Woke up around 7 45?
Joey called to like remind us that she's coming at 8.
Me & Mel actually wna wake up already.
Then I forgot whose idea was it to like quickly change and get ready everything,
then continue to like fake sleep?

Joey came.
me & mel was on the bed,(different, mind you.), fake sleeping.
Then being the nice(that's what she wanted me to say) Joey didn't wake us up, and just stood near my room door.

After awhile was super sian already.
So me and Melissa went to like boo-ed her.
She kinda freaked out, I think.
Laughed Laughed.

So went to tuition.
Walked home, pretty fun.
Pictures.
I deleted pretty lot.




I know I look ugly/bald/stupid.
But whatever.

Joey going to my house till 2pm? Then I'll go to hers till 4pm? or 5pm? with Melissa.
Was super fun.
Ate maggimee, super hot, my whole face turned red.
LOL.

Danced all type of dances, laugh like crazy, even Melissa couldn't stop me & Joey.
LOL.
Yes, we are mad.

Played chodadi.
Ownage! :DDD
Melissa drunk salt water, :/
It's healthy okay.
LOL.

Around 2? Joey's dad fetched me & melissa to her house.
Played with soap, water, hot water, cold water, hair.
Sprayed coldest water on each other.

Very lame.
But uber fun.
Joey was like screaming for help throughout.
HAHA.

After that, went to watch MBCB's Sydney video part 1.
LOL, laughing at Melissa & Joey.
ROFL :/
They look superrrrr funny.

Went home, Melissa's father fetched.
Lazy to elaborateeeeee.

Gna ask Mom if I can sleepover at Melissa house on Sunday :DD

Oh & I'm going to put my braces tomorrow.
I think, should be.
Best time cause they say it's gna be super pain & I won't eat that much.
Heeeeee, So I think I deserve to eat alot later right.
LOL.

5:18 PM
NICOLE♥